The process of allowing death, of releasing, and of letting go, is often not just that simple. Old memories, old ways of being, and old feelings follow us around, pulling and tugging at our emotions, reminding us of how things used to be, and attempting to keep us comfortable and safe. But death isn’t about being safe and comfortable. Death asks us to be vulnerable and to delve more deeply into the crevices of our heart.
In moving out of our comfort zone, in being more vulnerable, and in being in deeper relationship with our heart we get to understand something more about ourselves and what we really love. This brings to mind the phrase of “If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it is yours. If it doesn’t, it never was.” However, in thinking about these words, my perspective shifts to a more internal than external interpretation.
What if, in setting something free from our lives, it’s return is a expression, an understanding of what we love rather than an expression of what loves us? What comes back is yours because it’s what your heart has always and eternally loved. What comes back is a knowing about the kind of love that has always existed within you, the kind of love you have always been.
On the other side of the coin, however, what comes back might be what you’re not ready to let go of. What comes back might haunt you until you recognize the disparity within your heart of what your love is not, or perhaps where your love has not yet been able to grow. Even then, however, we are learning about our heart and our longings for life within death’s path.
So, today I invite you to think about the purpose of what’s tagging along behind you after death, after attempts of releasing and letting go. What are these tagalongs trying to show you? How might they offer an understanding of your heart? Can you face what’s tagging along and ask what’s being desired from within your heart? In what ways might these tagalongs open something more within you and within your heart? How might this relate to our next way of collectively dreaming together?